The Week From Hell
And in some respects, I mean that literally. You know how a while ago I was talking about how this last year has been all about patience, and I can already tell that this next one is about faith and trusting God and those around me. It seemed like this week was trying to break down any possible trace that I had of any of those three. Last Sunday, Ang was talking about how she wasn't looking forward to this week, and she couldn't have been more right. From being accused of being a horrible teacher for leaving a sprinkler on, to having to confront a parent about a possible instance of neglect, to tornados and storms of all sorts, I am just exhausted. and though I have been praying and seeking God's peace in these situations, I must admit that often this eludes me. I've been reading The Practice of the Presence Of God By brother Lawrence, and in it he talks about being as close to God in teh daily mundane chores of life as we are in our prayer time. He also talks about not dwelling upon our sins and lacking, but simply confessing and moving on with our daily walk. Both are good principles, but they are so far ont eh side of idealism, that I find myself skeptical, and almost resentful toward the Brother for placing out there this unreachable goal. I find myself thinking "thats all well and good for you, a monk, but I live in the real world- the messy world, the confusing world." What I really need is to be able to take some measure of insight from this book and incorporate it into my life and approach this goal over time, but for those of you who know me really well know that I am an all or nothing kind of person- when I step in, I do so with both feet. This can be valuable at times, but definetly has its issues. This week I've also been confronting other insecurities that are probably best not to go into in a public, online journal, but I'd just like to say thanks to you all who have given me that most valuable of gifts- fellowship.
Our Open House
We had our first Open House in the new school today, which was awesome to be able to have people in it, and see their faces as they walk through the halls- especially the kids, knowing that they will learn here, and play in the gym, and have a locker, like big kids. And the parents who have entrusted their kids to us in faith that eventaully we would have facilities to house them all, and all of the teachers who have so faithfully worked in conditions that have never been the best, to now see this abundance of space, this wealth of facilities, it is such a blessing. We were a little dissapointed with the turn out, but I think it wil be good training dfor future Open Houses. And really, we are going to have over 100 kids in the program next year as we stand right now, so we will be okay.
And in some respects, I mean that literally. You know how a while ago I was talking about how this last year has been all about patience, and I can already tell that this next one is about faith and trusting God and those around me. It seemed like this week was trying to break down any possible trace that I had of any of those three. Last Sunday, Ang was talking about how she wasn't looking forward to this week, and she couldn't have been more right. From being accused of being a horrible teacher for leaving a sprinkler on, to having to confront a parent about a possible instance of neglect, to tornados and storms of all sorts, I am just exhausted. and though I have been praying and seeking God's peace in these situations, I must admit that often this eludes me. I've been reading The Practice of the Presence Of God By brother Lawrence, and in it he talks about being as close to God in teh daily mundane chores of life as we are in our prayer time. He also talks about not dwelling upon our sins and lacking, but simply confessing and moving on with our daily walk. Both are good principles, but they are so far ont eh side of idealism, that I find myself skeptical, and almost resentful toward the Brother for placing out there this unreachable goal. I find myself thinking "thats all well and good for you, a monk, but I live in the real world- the messy world, the confusing world." What I really need is to be able to take some measure of insight from this book and incorporate it into my life and approach this goal over time, but for those of you who know me really well know that I am an all or nothing kind of person- when I step in, I do so with both feet. This can be valuable at times, but definetly has its issues. This week I've also been confronting other insecurities that are probably best not to go into in a public, online journal, but I'd just like to say thanks to you all who have given me that most valuable of gifts- fellowship.
Our Open House
We had our first Open House in the new school today, which was awesome to be able to have people in it, and see their faces as they walk through the halls- especially the kids, knowing that they will learn here, and play in the gym, and have a locker, like big kids. And the parents who have entrusted their kids to us in faith that eventaully we would have facilities to house them all, and all of the teachers who have so faithfully worked in conditions that have never been the best, to now see this abundance of space, this wealth of facilities, it is such a blessing. We were a little dissapointed with the turn out, but I think it wil be good training dfor future Open Houses. And really, we are going to have over 100 kids in the program next year as we stand right now, so we will be okay.
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