Okay, why am i writing now? I dont know- its 11:27 and i have to be up at 5. Im just stupid. I guess I just feel like actually doing something other than work and homework. (Im biting my tongue against complaining about my profs.) I was at family christian stores tonight looking for a book covering the different views on baptism- i did a paper on it at rbc, but its been a while and i miss not having a christian library- one of the few good things about rbc. may I just say that fcs is very disorganized, and you cant find what you want unless you look it up on amazon or something before you come in. Its nice that its so big now, but whats the point if you cant find anything. Anyways, i ran into mark- who was having a similar problem finding what he wanted- and we got into a discussion on all of the stupid dating books that are out there for christians. There was one there that was "101 ways to catch and keep a man" 1. I dont want to be a woman who "catches" a man. 2. I don't want to have to catch a man- i want him to like me for me- without any ploys or conniving. I guess im just tired of it all- the sneakiness of christian women as a whole- there seems to be a lack of good godly guys out there so women feel like they all must be on the prowl every day of their lives. I just don't want to play those games- and all the wondering and worry over it all- when this world is sucha brief time period of our eteral existance- Im sure that when we get up to heaven all of our worries from here and now will seem so stupid- but im also sure well have better things to do than think about how dumb we were on earth. I guess im ranting because i met a guy recently who is attractive and nice and has many of the qualities that i want in a guy, and i admitted this to some of my friends and now they are convinced that i have a major thing for him and that im spending my time pining away for him. Their advise ranges from going over to his place and asking him out to the bar (so me isnt it?) and more feasibly inviting him to watch a movie. Its just not worth the effort. So- I'm boycotting dumb christian dating books, boycotting worrying over guy/girl relationships and seriously thinking about boycotting disney fairy tale movies and romantic comedies where there is really no plot and the people really couldnt or souldnt be in love with each other (ill save that for a diff rant) I probably won't really boycott the movies- im too much of a romantic for that and im all conviction and no action. okay, nowi really am being dumb- procrastinating and not going to bed. Later ya'all!