May I just say thanks soooooo much to the person who left the anonymous comment to one of my posts about changing so that people who don't have a blogger account can leave comments, "It does accept anonymous posts!" I'm so happy that you checked. actually, it really was what I needed to lift my day. It hasn't been bad- just exhausting. I spent the day walking back and forth from the preschool room to the new school, carrying all manner of classroom ittems, and tomorrow I have to do it again. My arms are heavy and my legs weak. We had an ice cream social for the River today for our getting our building, but I only stayed a short while, becuase I was so tired, and ang and I had been on a walk and then went swimming, so I was still kind of damp, and I just felt brain dead. As I've been teaching austin, sometimes you just need alone time, and thats not a bad thing. It did force me to meet some more people, but i hate it when I feel like people are getting to know me out of duty, or because they know that I don't know anyone. all of my usual people were gone- I don't really know why, except for Paul and Melissa, because her grandfather passed away this last weekend and she's been travelling and has to write the funeral thank- you notes. Lisa, you'll be proud of me- this is all I'm writing, but I'm sure that when I have more energy I'll be back to my usual verbose nature.

Lisa will be dissapointed in me now.

Okay, so I'm adding something. I was just reading Kortnie's blog about how excited she is to get married and see Kelly every day, and come home to him, and I've been talking to angie today- so you know there was some discussion of her and john's relationship, and I guess I am dealing with the fact that I don't have that. Not that I begrudge any of you your relationships, and not that I want you to stop discussing them around me, because it is beautiful and natural for you to do so. And not that I sit at home aching with envy every night, and really I know that I wouldn't be happy with john, or kelly, or mike, or paul, or mark, or jeff, or pretty much any of my friends boyfriends/fiances/husbands, but as an emotional and relational person, there are times where I really wish for that. Right now I don't think that it is in an un-holy way, because I do think that it is possible to desire something- like a life-mate and not have it be out of jealousy. so what I'm really saying is please keep me accountable about that, that I keep it as a healthy desire for the best that I know in my heart God has waiting for me- that I stick with patience tempering my anticipation and trust in God's soveriegn plan leading the course of my every moment. Man, I sound deep when I'm exhausted- maybe I should do this more often and my first book would win a pulitzer or something.