I'm sure y'all have had those days. Not the day where everything goes wrong, but the day where things seem to be going fine and then something that you did, something entirely innocent reaches up and bites you on the butt. That happened to me yesterday. I had a confrontation with one of the dads at my school. It was about something that i did and i, as well as the other teachers around have faith that i didn't do anything wrong, but it still upset me. There was a time where i would have been crying at even less of a confrontation, but this time i wasn't. Maybe it was that I had a minute to prepare myself, or maybe its just that it happened at a convenient time for me hormonally, but it really showed me how much i've matured in my ability to deal with people that are unpleasant towards me. That is something that I am very grateful that I have the daycare for. I am forced daily to make decisions and to speak in front of the kids, and though this doesn't exactly compare to speaking to a group of adults, I am still more comfortable with group speaking than I was- which I once dreaded more than anything. Now I'm on the other side, of trying to make myself shut up. I have been blessed with enough intelligence to have something to say in class on a variety of subjects, but I don't want to be "that person" the one in class who is always talking, who feels that they have all the answers. Because I know that I don't. But I also hate it when no one is answering the question because they don't feel like talking or don't know the answer- if I know it and no one else will talk then I will come up with something to say. When I think about my classes, I used to be really negative, but lately I have been seeing the opportunity for evangelism that I have really been missing there. That is an area where I have always been weak (its very close to public speaking.) But we were discussing the Faerie Queen in Brit Lit, which has a lot of allegories from Christianity and it pained me to see that a lot of them I was the only one to get, and it made me sad that I have been forgetting what I am really there for- and here for- or anywhere for, and it isn't for grades, it isn't for a husband, a family, a lifestyle, or acquiring possessions, it is only to be the best representation of Christ that I can be to those that I come into contact with, which is something that I have been forgetting as I begin to see the end of my long college life coming closer. Once again I have written too much, but it is because the cord for my laptop is broken and I haven't gotten a new one yet, so I haven't had that outlet to write there (im writing on my roomies comp- which is the one that's attached to the cable modem) 3 Hours to STOMP!


Quote: Courtney- just after my confrontation with the dad at my daycare, while playing with another girl who was pretending to be her mom- "Today, my mommy and I are going on a Honeymoon!" (I love that girl!)