Life is weird

so, have you ever noticed how, you pray about stuff happening, and you long for it and hope for it, and desire it, and covet it, but then it finally happens, and then you see all of the results that you never thought would happen, and something good ends up being something lukewarm. Maybe im just inheriting my mother pessimism trait a little bit too much here, or maybe its just that the devils is trying to tell me that im crap lately.

In other news...

I am planning on sending in something that ive been writing to this service that evaluates writing and sends the best to publishers to look at. I dont know why, but ive been feeling a real leading towards doing that lately, and its not even nearly done. The only problem is it costs 80 bucks, and ive been saving up to have daisy take a certain visit to the vet. I'm sure though if this is really a leading from God, that the money will be there. So, if i send it in, you will all soon hear me freaking out while waiting to hear if its been accepted and then to hear if any publishers like it. Sometimes I wonder why i couldnt have a normal passion, like business, or nursing, or architecture, or somethign where a girl who is afraid of failure will not have to set herself up for it time and time again. God must be trying to teach me something here. Why does He always have to be like that- i want to stay in my safe, easy little bubble. Well, no, I don't- but i dont want to live through the process of stepping out of my bubble.

Quote

Grace (2nd grade) about her guitar lessons from my lovely roomies boyfriend. "My mom says that if I get good, when I grow up I can have a guitar that plugs in! And be a rock star!"

may i just say the words for today are "tires, sleepy, relieved, excited, bored, and grumpy." that about covers it.

SNOW
I culdn't believe it today when we saw that the snow was coming down. Miss Jess and I were on the playground, and we were somewhat horrified, but the kids were really geeked up about it, so i'm happy for their sake. They eneded up cahnting and yelling about the snow, and grace's comment was that it was christmas now. Nice wishful thinking there grace. I am excited about the holiday season starting and decorating and baking and all of that, especially since it'll be here in my own place. The christams coffee cake- mmmmmmm. A tradition in my family dating back over 50 years. At about 7 coffee cakes per daughter per year that makes 700 coffee cakes! wow- and now its my turn to begin making them (not that i haven't helped before, but its different when it is at your own place. Lisa, I'm sorry that you had to suffer through Hanging Up. THats one of those movies that you think is going to e a comedy and then you realize- not so much. That was okay in About a Boy- one of my favorites- but that one was just depressing. Like 28 days! Ahhh! One that i saw recently that actually was good was Bend it like Beckham. Its a british movie about soccer players. I don't know that it is, but i usually really like british movies- maybe its because they're unconventional- like me. Maybe we'll have to watch it on the movie night at my place. Its one that I think I really want to buy, and though i dont have the money right now, i might give in and use the dreaded credit card, cause if youre going to buy it, the idea of paying to rent isn't really a good one. At least now i have excel on my computer so i can better plan my budget- thanks to my mom the accounting wiz. Thatll help with my personal budget as well as my soap selling budget, but i still have a lot to learn about using it. also, i have a job prospect in the sociology department conducting phone surveys for research, which would really help my money situation. itd be good because id be able to pick my own hours in the evenings and possibly saturday mornings. okay- zoning out here, must go to bed!


Movie Quote:
About A Boy Toni Colette to Hugh Grant "Am I a bad mother?" "No, you're just a barking lunatic."