so, i just got back from my fabulous vacation with my roomie to the UP. Cedar Campus was beautiful (and now I know what everyuone is talking about) Im kinda sore from driving 12 hours in the 3 days and riding the lovely little rental bike around Macinac Island. The first thing i did when i got home was take a nice nap- its weird how tired sitting in one position for hours on end can make you. Im very thankful i went, but i really need this weekend to just realx before the year starts. Now that summer program is over, i can finally think about this next year, and get excited about classes. I can finally see the end of my undergard life in the distance, and now i just have to decide if i want to go on after that. This weekedn was also my first time driving over the Macinac Bridge- or one like it. My mom is pretty nervous about bridges and ive let her transfer some of those feelings onto me, so the first time i had to drive over it i was feeling kinda nervous, but i just made myself get over it. and the second time i wa barely nervous at all. All in all, it was less nerve wreaking than the traffic and construction in grand rapids is. By the way everyone- stay out of Grand Rapids! Especially in rush hour- the constrution is insane! Okay- carrie is too sore to write more right now.
Friday, August 22, 2003
Sunday, August 17, 2003
A Very Happy Carrie
You alla re looking at a very happy carrie. I know that lately my posts have been kind of upset, but I am feeling decidedly better. No more PMS, no more desks falling apart. And kara has started moving in, and i can already tell from her stuff that shes going to be great- i know that sounds weird, but you can really tell alot about a person by their bedspread. A usless piece of wisdom from the mind of carrie, but I'm sure if you think about it you'll see that its really true. I am dissapointed that I didn't get to see her. We were on our staff retreat, and even though we were close by in angie and isa's place i just didn't get over here to see her. She'll be back tomorrow though, so then I'll be sure to see her. We start staff training tomorrow, and I'm very excited. A whole week w/ out kids! Though we all love them, thats been kind of a theme of our staff during the retreat. Another mood lifter- i talked to angie- our director about some of my worries and it really helped. Plus, I'm going on vacation! Only 3 days, but I'm going to Macinac Island and Drummond Island! Relaxation! Yay!
Quote of the Day: You've Got Mail Grandfather to Joe Fox "We used to write letters, Cecilia had beautiful...penmanship." Some of you from my high school days will get the joke. A fav. movie of mine, older now, but still definetly worth the viewing.
You alla re looking at a very happy carrie. I know that lately my posts have been kind of upset, but I am feeling decidedly better. No more PMS, no more desks falling apart. And kara has started moving in, and i can already tell from her stuff that shes going to be great- i know that sounds weird, but you can really tell alot about a person by their bedspread. A usless piece of wisdom from the mind of carrie, but I'm sure if you think about it you'll see that its really true. I am dissapointed that I didn't get to see her. We were on our staff retreat, and even though we were close by in angie and isa's place i just didn't get over here to see her. She'll be back tomorrow though, so then I'll be sure to see her. We start staff training tomorrow, and I'm very excited. A whole week w/ out kids! Though we all love them, thats been kind of a theme of our staff during the retreat. Another mood lifter- i talked to angie- our director about some of my worries and it really helped. Plus, I'm going on vacation! Only 3 days, but I'm going to Macinac Island and Drummond Island! Relaxation! Yay!
Quote of the Day: You've Got Mail Grandfather to Joe Fox "We used to write letters, Cecilia had beautiful...penmanship." Some of you from my high school days will get the joke. A fav. movie of mine, older now, but still definetly worth the viewing.
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
Does my font look upset? I was going for upset.
Let me just say that PMS has trapped me once again, along with my crappy financial situation and carrie just had a big old crying like a baby pity party, but i feel better now and have gained some perspective on some things. And may I just say that my dad is the best guy in the world? (at least most of the time) Not only did he fix my cell phone- which he also gave me, in addition to fixing my desk YAY! after I spoke to hime tonight i was upset because he was telling me some things i knew, but didn't want to recognize, i drove away to do some work at work, telling myself not to cry, when my dad 2 ways me and says, "carrie do you need some money? Are you okay?" I told him that it was better if he didn't give me any and he says, "okay, but know that if you need anything i'm here for you." I'm like, okay NOW i'm crying. so i head off to work ( i had to get something ready for melissa for tomorrow) blubbering like I haven't in a long time. Which really was very therapudic, and now i'm thinking a lot more rationally, not that my situation has changed at all. My dad is going to get a big fat card from carrie as a thank you for all he's done lately. If you pray for me please pray that I'll have peace about the decisions that i need to make (which i won't go into now) and that i will be clear and not let my emotions cloud the choices i Need to make. Thats all i'm saying about that.
In other news of Carrie my desk is now repaired and upright again and has 2 metal braces holding it up- it reminds me of haley ( who is sadly moving away from the daycare) It doesn't look too bad, and I'm planning on finding some nifty way to decorate it and hide the mess. Okay done venting once again. Didn't I say earlier that the Devil would be laying some serious smack down on me bacause i was feeling content. I suppose I should take it as a compliment and trust that it means i'm meant for great things if he tries so hard to bring me down.
Let me just say that PMS has trapped me once again, along with my crappy financial situation and carrie just had a big old crying like a baby pity party, but i feel better now and have gained some perspective on some things. And may I just say that my dad is the best guy in the world? (at least most of the time) Not only did he fix my cell phone- which he also gave me, in addition to fixing my desk YAY! after I spoke to hime tonight i was upset because he was telling me some things i knew, but didn't want to recognize, i drove away to do some work at work, telling myself not to cry, when my dad 2 ways me and says, "carrie do you need some money? Are you okay?" I told him that it was better if he didn't give me any and he says, "okay, but know that if you need anything i'm here for you." I'm like, okay NOW i'm crying. so i head off to work ( i had to get something ready for melissa for tomorrow) blubbering like I haven't in a long time. Which really was very therapudic, and now i'm thinking a lot more rationally, not that my situation has changed at all. My dad is going to get a big fat card from carrie as a thank you for all he's done lately. If you pray for me please pray that I'll have peace about the decisions that i need to make (which i won't go into now) and that i will be clear and not let my emotions cloud the choices i Need to make. Thats all i'm saying about that.
In other news of Carrie my desk is now repaired and upright again and has 2 metal braces holding it up- it reminds me of haley ( who is sadly moving away from the daycare) It doesn't look too bad, and I'm planning on finding some nifty way to decorate it and hide the mess. Okay done venting once again. Didn't I say earlier that the Devil would be laying some serious smack down on me bacause i was feeling content. I suppose I should take it as a compliment and trust that it means i'm meant for great things if he tries so hard to bring me down.
Monday, August 11, 2003
Carrie's Grand and Stupid Adventure
So, some of you know about this already, but I just felt like sharing my accident and annoyance with everyone. I was moving my desk- one side is a cabinet and the other is just a board- and i was trying to move the thing on my own, which ended up being a pretty stupid idea. I was pushing on it when i hear this loud "crack!" and i go over and lo and behold the board is bent at about a 30 degree angle. I decide to push it back so that it won't fall on me and it promptly collapses and almost lands on me! This is the ind of thing that happens only to me and i never understand why it seems to happen with such regularity! So, my dad is going to try to fix it- i hate to lose my rotating hutch- and i really do need a desk and i most certainly can't afford to buy a new one. I hope he can fix it, cause i also don't want to lug the stupid 100 or so pound thing out of here and down the stairs.
One good thing that happened though was that I'm finally registered for classes after having to submit a readmittance application because i've been off for a year. Very annoying, but now i am officially registered for 4 classes, but im thinking of losing one cause i need to work that i could be doing during that time, and i might get a second job. BTW if anyone knows of any good jobs around please let me know. my invisible roomie and i are going to make cushions for our couch and futon, and ive also absconded with a certain cushion from a friend's place (who recently moved into dear old winchell way) that i happen to think is kinda past its replacement date and im going to recover it, or maybe just restuff it too. Lisa knows about it, but i think that angie may notice in about 2 days that its not there, but have no idea where it dissapeared to. it'll be interesting to see when she notices- she needs to have a few less things on her plate. Okay, done avoiding bed! One week till Summer Program is over- Scary!
So, some of you know about this already, but I just felt like sharing my accident and annoyance with everyone. I was moving my desk- one side is a cabinet and the other is just a board- and i was trying to move the thing on my own, which ended up being a pretty stupid idea. I was pushing on it when i hear this loud "crack!" and i go over and lo and behold the board is bent at about a 30 degree angle. I decide to push it back so that it won't fall on me and it promptly collapses and almost lands on me! This is the ind of thing that happens only to me and i never understand why it seems to happen with such regularity! So, my dad is going to try to fix it- i hate to lose my rotating hutch- and i really do need a desk and i most certainly can't afford to buy a new one. I hope he can fix it, cause i also don't want to lug the stupid 100 or so pound thing out of here and down the stairs.
One good thing that happened though was that I'm finally registered for classes after having to submit a readmittance application because i've been off for a year. Very annoying, but now i am officially registered for 4 classes, but im thinking of losing one cause i need to work that i could be doing during that time, and i might get a second job. BTW if anyone knows of any good jobs around please let me know. my invisible roomie and i are going to make cushions for our couch and futon, and ive also absconded with a certain cushion from a friend's place (who recently moved into dear old winchell way) that i happen to think is kinda past its replacement date and im going to recover it, or maybe just restuff it too. Lisa knows about it, but i think that angie may notice in about 2 days that its not there, but have no idea where it dissapeared to. it'll be interesting to see when she notices- she needs to have a few less things on her plate. Okay, done avoiding bed! One week till Summer Program is over- Scary!
Monday, August 04, 2003
My Invisible Roomie
I just want to say that my invisible roomie has reappeared and we've actually had together time tonight and last night. Its cool to just get to be around the apartment together instead of always coming and going- even though I had a movie to go to and she had babysitting we still got to relax some. Lisa and I went to see Pirates of the Caribbean and may i just say that Orlando Bloom is hot! Even more so with brown hair and eyes. Okay- annie just went to bed- she has to get up in 6 hours- she was joking that i was going to write that i had to tell her 5 times to go to bed, so i'm writing this just for her. Anyways, yeah, so, Kara came and went before i got home from work, and i guess she came an hour early, but at least annie was here to see her, and it sounds like she liked what we've done so far and has some of the stuff we need. And annie met her boyfriend who happens to be going to western as a grad student in math next year too. Only 2 weeks till she moves in! I was thinking about it today, and it may sound corny, but i really feel like i am in the perfect place for me. Don't got no money, don't got no man, work may be stressful, classes inconvenient and hours at work at really stinky times (sorry lisa, but its true) but living here for only 3 weeks has already been so good for me, and i can only see it growing better. I know the devil is going to try to put the smack down on me as he always seems to do when i'm feeling content- tricksy he is, false- (ask a Lord of the Rings Fan if you don't get it) but I'm going to remember my conviction right now that i am right on the path that God would have me be on. So thats me for now, exhausted yet not going to bed, and enjoying simply being alive- and for anyone out there reading this- if anyone actually does- i want you to just take aminute and think of all of the blessings in your life- and i know that there must be at least one, and take the time to be truly greatful for what we have been given, for i know how often i fall into ingratitude when my abundance is staring me straight in the face, and i look around it in order to better see my dissapointment and pain. Once agin- my 2 bit philosophy for the day.
One final question, due to mr. mark's influence- Would you rather marry a person who clips their toenails in bed, or uses your toothbrush to clean the toilet and then puts it back?
I just want to say that my invisible roomie has reappeared and we've actually had together time tonight and last night. Its cool to just get to be around the apartment together instead of always coming and going- even though I had a movie to go to and she had babysitting we still got to relax some. Lisa and I went to see Pirates of the Caribbean and may i just say that Orlando Bloom is hot! Even more so with brown hair and eyes. Okay- annie just went to bed- she has to get up in 6 hours- she was joking that i was going to write that i had to tell her 5 times to go to bed, so i'm writing this just for her. Anyways, yeah, so, Kara came and went before i got home from work, and i guess she came an hour early, but at least annie was here to see her, and it sounds like she liked what we've done so far and has some of the stuff we need. And annie met her boyfriend who happens to be going to western as a grad student in math next year too. Only 2 weeks till she moves in! I was thinking about it today, and it may sound corny, but i really feel like i am in the perfect place for me. Don't got no money, don't got no man, work may be stressful, classes inconvenient and hours at work at really stinky times (sorry lisa, but its true) but living here for only 3 weeks has already been so good for me, and i can only see it growing better. I know the devil is going to try to put the smack down on me as he always seems to do when i'm feeling content- tricksy he is, false- (ask a Lord of the Rings Fan if you don't get it) but I'm going to remember my conviction right now that i am right on the path that God would have me be on. So thats me for now, exhausted yet not going to bed, and enjoying simply being alive- and for anyone out there reading this- if anyone actually does- i want you to just take aminute and think of all of the blessings in your life- and i know that there must be at least one, and take the time to be truly greatful for what we have been given, for i know how often i fall into ingratitude when my abundance is staring me straight in the face, and i look around it in order to better see my dissapointment and pain. Once agin- my 2 bit philosophy for the day.
One final question, due to mr. mark's influence- Would you rather marry a person who clips their toenails in bed, or uses your toothbrush to clean the toilet and then puts it back?
Sunday, August 03, 2003
BTW- Lisa posted that last message. She was showing me some of the spiffdy stuff that I can do here that I didnt know about. I just got back a few hours ago from visiting lisa's home in grand haven. We went up for the Coast Guard Festival. Even though I've been a couple times it was definetly much better with genuine Grand havenders to tell me where to go, and also to chauffer me around. Lisa and her frined Justing did all the driving the whole time and I just allowed myself to relax and follow my fearless leader. I also took a mental vacation from worrying about all that was sitting at home for me to do (new roomie coming tomorrow, planning for next week at work, registering for classes, painting the little picnic tables for the playgraound, weeding the garden- praise God for rain since i wouldnt have been able to do it anyways, laundry, and all the other little things that seem to add up.) Surpirisingly, at least for those who know my personality- I was able to relax and not obsess too much about it- or about other things (lisa, melissa and annie wil know what i mean) Tonight I've actually been able to accomplish quite a bit and I don't think we'll scare off kara too much abut commiting to live with us. I'm so excited for her to get here and settled even though the apartment will be filled with boxes again. and then this saturday angie and lisa and kourtnie (sorry if i spelled that wrong) move into the next building. Its kind of a running joke about where we'll have our work meetings with 4 of us from CFK lving here this year.
Only 2 more themed left and then the sumer is over! Its so hard to believe that its gone by this quick, but I guess being crazy busy will do that to you. I keep telling myself that once summer is over i'll have time to do all the things that i haven't been able to do this ummer, but I think i'm fooling myself. At least I'm 10 minutes closer to everything now. Oh, does anyone have any advise for annie and i for our vacation during the 3rd week of august. I think we're going to cedar campus, but i kinda want t do something in addition- something new and kinda crazy, yet cheap. Porbably kinda hard to find something that fits those qualifications. Okay, nachos are waiting for me and laundry to fold so see ya all later!
Only 2 more themed left and then the sumer is over! Its so hard to believe that its gone by this quick, but I guess being crazy busy will do that to you. I keep telling myself that once summer is over i'll have time to do all the things that i haven't been able to do this ummer, but I think i'm fooling myself. At least I'm 10 minutes closer to everything now. Oh, does anyone have any advise for annie and i for our vacation during the 3rd week of august. I think we're going to cedar campus, but i kinda want t do something in addition- something new and kinda crazy, yet cheap. Porbably kinda hard to find something that fits those qualifications. Okay, nachos are waiting for me and laundry to fold so see ya all later!
Friday, August 01, 2003
Lisa is cool. Enough said.
Okay, so that just said that I posted my message at 9:16, so i sound really anal about getting to bed, but really its 12:16 and my previous post was from after 1 am so i need to figure out how to chage the time. but not tonight.
You know, tonight i had dinner and hung out with some friends from high school that i haven't seen in a while, and though it was great, it made me relaize how far apart our lives really have become. Its not anyones fault and its not necessarily a bad or good thing, just one of those natural things that occurs when people are moved geographically and by life's circumstances. Here I am with at least a somewhat sturdy job, with people depending upon me, with a possibility of a long term job, and there they all are, in college and working to attend school, instead of attending school to fit in with work, as I find myself doing. But what can one do, this is just what happens. I know I need ot be better about keeping in contact with people from my past, and to not let us get so out of touch, but one day can turn into 5 or one week into a month so easily, and then it feels odd to write. Its also odd because this is the first time where we all- or at least most of us can drink. Since I ws 17 I've gone to OP and Ria has talked about the day we can get strawberry daquiris and have them not be virgin, and tonight I at least was able to do so, and it was really really strange. When do we cross that line from childhood to adulthood? I know it wasn't a week ago today. I don't think I could pinpoint one certain time, or even stretch of time, and i think that making an arbitrary age like 21 to say now you are old enough and mature enough to drink is so foolhardy, but i guess its the only way to do it. Anyways, I'm leaing a field trip tomorrow, and i'm feeling really unprepared, so I'd better get to bed so I can at least feel rested.
